Take me as I am, or well you know the rest.

Divorce, ooh, the "d" word. It's not as bad as people make it out to be, honestly, it the people who make divorce as bad as it sounds and gets. I still talk to my ex-husband, just about every day.  This sounds a little weird for some, but we are much better as friends than we were as anything, believe me, I am  a much better divorced from him and keeping him as a friend than not.

Life throws us all sorts of curves and for those of us who can handle it, well we do and for the rest, I am truly sorry for you.  Either you break down, you run and hide or you ignore ti and it builds up and you explode.  Oh, not to forget me, I love to vent, lol.  I do talk and I talk a lot, I really have to feeling or thought either way who likes or dislikes it, take me as I am or, well you know how the saying goes, take a hike, or don't take me, ohhh, watch me as I go, that's it.

I was born talking, more than likely, I love to talk, sing, chat and have awesome pleasant conversations with people whom I find interesting.  Even if you aren't I will still chat with you, maybe not as long, but I will.  I vent and it helps release the feelings like, anger, happiness, sadness, all the other feelings I have inside.  I think everyone should try it.  There is nothing wrong with a little release of energy now and again.  When it builds, it's not good for you and causes stress and we all know stress can cause a multitude if things.

So nearly 20 years of being married I released my stress and signed my divorce papers.  It was a great feeling as well as a sad one.  Who gets married to get divorced?  I thought this was in sickness and in health, better or worse, the whole she-bang.  I have to say as relieved as I was, I was sad.  I felt as if a weight was lifted off of my shoulders at the same time that I leaving a life behind.  Now what?  Scared and all alone, although I had two great girls, teens of course and still home and good , thankfully.  But all in all I was alone, surrounded by people, but alone.

He knew the saying, didn't want me, well actually it was me who didn't want him, he had been tainted, several times over too.  I was done with that.  Today, well actually just a few weeks ago he asked me about getting back together, I laugh at him, cruel, I know.  I just laugh and tell him no way in Hell.  I told him, he didn't want me when he had me, why now?  As soon as I the pause, I tell him to stop, because I already know what's coming.  I don't ever want to hear those words come out of that man's mouth again.

I was sick, I gained weight, I was not happy with myself, my hey, I always looked good, took care of myself and my home, my girls and him, so really, if he didn't take me for who I was then, never, will you get the chance again, you know the saying, take me as I am or watch me as I go.  I left and I am much happier now and just to know that I am happy with who I am today and that I made the best choice, makes me the better person.

We are very amicable with each other and the girls, don't fight and if he needs help doing something within reason, I always help him and vice-verse. Why can't other people do this?

I am smart and a people person, love to help others and volunteer when I can.  I have been told that I am beautiful, sexy and I am in very good shape as I work out 3-4 days a week now.  I have a great personality and I play well with others.  Friends by the handful and I am very handy, so what happened?  Maybe I was too smart, or pretty.  I have no idea, but whatever it seems to be, I am me and guess what?  Take me as I am or, well you know the rest.